Responsabilities

Zoë Schwimmer w/daughter Cleo via The Glow

 All around me, people are procreating. Two of my close coworkers at work are with child. My high school comrades are getting married, having children and all around doing some very adult choices. And that’s because, adults we certainly are, or have become. I am one of those who tend to shy from responsabilties. Maybe its because im immature, perhaps it is because I am scared. But today, as I was contemplating the growing belly of my friend, I got to think that in 5 weeks time, her whole life is going to be changed upside down. And that’s a wonderful thing. But all at once, it is a breathtaking concept. Your life, your independence, your concept of free time, all will be thrown upside down. A brand new chapter opens up and another, while not completely anhilited, will fade away, like a ghost of a life past. Having a child must be the most fulfilling experience of one’s life. But it’s definitely hard work. And im not suggesting that because you have a child, you should practice self-abnegation at all times. You are still a human with needs, desires, frustrations. But a good parent, and I truly believe that, is selfless. And letting go of that selfishness must be…hard. 

Are you ready for major responsibilities? Are you like me, a late bloomer? I think i am starting to realize that pretty soon, i will have to let go of the whole woman-child gimmick and become a proper adult. One that relies on oneself, one that is stable and non commitment phobic, one that owns up to her shortcomings and tackles daily life with pride and dignity, one that can...teach a child one day and be the transformative force behind its life. xox