I like my body

"i like my body when it is with your body.
 It is so quite a new thing. 
Muscles better and nerves more.
i like your body.
i like what it does, i like its hows. 
i like to feel the spine of your body and its bones, and the trembling
-firm-smoothness and which I will
again and again and again kiss, 
i like kissing this and that of you, 
i like, slowly stroking the, shocking fuzz of your electric fur,
 and what-is-it comes over parting flesh...
And eyes big love-crumbs, 
and possibly i like the thrill of under me you quite so new." EE Cummings

Plans

This will be me. All week-end. xox

Craft project

I have an insatiable desire as of late to create. To do. To see things come to life between my hands. It feels so good! So my latest craft project is to make my own bathrobe. I have been obsessed with finding the perfect lacy number for so long but to no avail! And since I don't have $300 to spend on this, I thought I would give it a shot. So here goes. Wish me luck! xox

The swing of things

Here's how it's going down on a Friday night:         . That's right. It's not going down. Because tonight, I am watching TV, knitting and doing all kinds of other very sexy things. This feels much deserved after a roller coaster of a week. Hope you are taking time for yourself and enjoying the little things. xox

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Murmuration

Murmuration from Islands & Rivers on Vimeo.
This video is certainly not new (forgive the lack of originality) but its spell kind of transcends time and trends. This stunning spectacle never grows old. xox

Personal best

Well, the point is completely moot now but dang! Miranda Kerr sure knows how to dress and present her pretty face to the world. Jealous. xox

Lets give ourselves a break

What i'm about to say will sound very egotistical but here goes: I used to think that I was the only one with problems. I used to think that I had the whole weight of the world on my shoulders. But that, is simply not true. Whilst I will never encourage rejoicing in other people's unfavorable circumstances, it does feel quite good to realize that EVERYONE and let me say again EVERYONE has issues. Mental health problems, financial difficulties, marital potholes the size of Brazil, love dependency issues....these are not bestowed solely on a very few "unlucky" bunch. These are the everyday problems of the masses. Nobody's life is picture perfect, no matter how hard they try to make you believe otherwise. And that's what so wonderful and scary about this thing called life. Nobody knows when the wheel will turn. When good or bad things will occur. If you are in a dark place, remind yourself that things will and can get better. And if you are in a wonderful place, be humbled and appreciate it to the fullest. That, is the least we can do. That is what we should do. xox

The gesture

“I did not want to get involved with a rock star. No way. It is not a sane thing to do but David changed my mind. He wooed me. (I was flying and he was going to pick me up at the airport) The doors open … I see all these people taking a picture of somebody. And he was standing there, flowers in hand, no security. That was when I knew. He didn’t care if anyone saw.” Iman on husband David Bowie

Just Be

Last week, one of my coworker alluded to my weight. Now this is not the first time this particular individual has made comments about the few extra pounds I have been carrying around. What is new is my reaction to it. Quite frankly, i didn't think that it would affect me. But it did. To be quite honest, I am still furious about it. Who has decided in this society that being skin and bones is the beauty ideal? And who says women should conform to this ideal in order to be considered "attractive"? I honestly wonder what bothers this coworker more: the fact that I am undoubtedly physically stronger than him or the fact that I am shaped like a 50's pinup girl? I respect everyone's ideal and I understand that not all men love curves. But the same way I wouldn't expect his 90-pounds wife to be like me,  I would similarly expect to be treated with the same kind of respect. Here's the thing: I am curvy, I have undeniable cellulite, I have a few extra pounds and I do enjoy my chocolate. I have also never been better psychologically or otherwise. I am a beautiful, voluptuous woman. And yes, I do not weight 90 pounds and shit, I have love handles. But that is ok. I am hard enough on myself without having to worry about others -very vocal- opinions. I love food and I exercise to feel better and be better- not to get into a size 2. So let's just be, alright? Let us rejoice in our shapes and ourselves. I think we could all benefit from loving ourselves a little bit more and hating ourselves and on others a little bit less. xox

Pequeña cosas

Let's beat the Monday Blues together ok? xox

To do

In my very near future. I believe. xox

Cozy

Enjoying my very cozy Saturday. The first snow felt today over Montreal. Wishing I could dressed in those lovely pieces to make my day an even better one. From top: Tory Burch Fox loafers, Freelook watch, Vince cashmere sweater and Current Elliott Skinny Jeans. Sending you lots of love and light and comfort. xox

“[My boyfriend] is honestly my best friend, and hopefully I’m his best friend too. He’s my favorite person to be around and makes me laugh harder than anybody…We can eat Cheetos and watch beach volleyball and we turn into two perverted Homer Simpsons, like, ‘Oh, she’s got a nice ass.’ I never thought we’d have such different opinions on asses.” Jennifer Lawrence

Magic

It's Friday. A little JGL goes a long way. xox

Illusion

 

 

Dreaming in black and white. xox

Thanks

Being thankful shouldn't be simply a yearly occurrence. Indeed, it should be an everyday process, a daily affirmation. But it does feel quite nice I guess to turn a simple day into an incredible feast of love. And so today, I say thank you. Thank you for giving me purpose. For allowing me to have a platform to share my thoughts, my feelings, my life. To allow me to share at all. I am thankful for each and everyone of you. xox

"My alone feels so good, I’ll only have you if you’re sweeter than my solitude." Warsan Shire

In love I trust

Despite everything, i still believe. xox

Keeping the glow

Since coming back from vacation, I have had a load of compliments on my glow. "You look so healthy" people say in admiration. True a good dose of Vitamin C and the Bajan sun will do that to you. But to keep my glow going for a few weeks, I rely on a life savior of a product I also like to call my best friend: Nars Illuminator in Orgasm. Get it. People will think you've just come back from a tropical destination. And you won't be able to live without it. Trust me. xox

Intuition

 I recently read a fascinating article published in the Guardian about, amongst other things, life after near-death experiences, resilience, courage and intuition. The article follows several different individuals who have had a close encounter with death only to survive either in terror or in gratitude and appreciation. In two of those stories however, what fascinated me is that these individuals had had premonitions that well, things were going to turn to shit. They had felt either seconds or years prior a deep-rooted fear, they had sensed that something was not quite right and in both cases, chose to ignore that voice. Chose to silence their doubts and forge ahead, only to be confronted face on with an abrupt impending finality. So what we can all learn from their traumatizing and life-altering experiences is to trust our instincts. If a little voice tells you that a situation is unsafe, that a person is not trustworthy, that individuals are unsavory characters or that a place feels dangerous, listen to it. It might just save you a broken heart, a broken leg or save your life altogether. xox

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The beards

Tip: for some well-deserved eye-candy, go on over and head to Viking Posts. Thank me later. xox

Glam

Whoa Nelly! Nikki Reed always slays on the red carpet. Loving her boho-chic vibe. xox

"You gain strength, courage and confidence by every experience in which you really stop to look fear in the face. You are able to say to yourself, ‘I have lived through this horror. I can take the next thing that comes along.’ You must do the thing you think you cannot do." Eleanor Roosevelt

Wanderer

The wanderer above the sea fog by Caspar David Friedrich. xox

The list

Standards in love are a fairly new concept to me (as mentioned here). And my idea of standards, I am realizing now, was encroached in the realm of the vague. Tallness, kindness, generosity, etc. All concepts which are pretty inclusive and general. But after having a talk with a friend of mine last night, I realized that my list was no list at all. His was full of precise details ranging from ambition, to bank accounts to a desire to redecorate. And it got me thinking, once more, about voicing what you want. Even though I may not entirely agree with his list, I do admire his determination and focus in finding someone that suits his needs and aspirations. Heck all I want is a kind man who respects me and is faithful to me. I never thought about what I would like him to be doing for a living or about what hobbies I would like him to have...never. I find this a bit reductive as I my own hobbies and aspirations are ever changing. But perhaps, painting a more detailed portrait of an ideal partner could make him more tangible instead of this face-less elusive being I have yet to met. So I ask you, as I ask myself today: what are you looking for in a partner? What is important to you? What won't you accept? xox

Vivian Maier

Recently discovered the work of 50's street photographer Vivian Maier. So beautiful. Cannot peel my eyes away from it all. xox