DAY 9: In which ways are you your own worst enemy?
Well, if you know anyone who has suffered from mental issues, they will tell you, without a doubt, that they are their own worst enemies. Indeed, i am no exception to this. You see, I am guilty of self-hate, self-doubt, harsh criticism, and constant longing for something i'm not. I am slowly starting to realize that love, must, above all, come from within. And I have 27 years of deficit in that matter to overcome. Being enough is a constant struggle for me, within me, but it is one that i fully intend to come out of victorious. When your mind is depressed, when you are almost catatonic due to crippling anxiety, panic attacks and any other form of mental breakdowns, then, evidently, you are at the mercy of your mind. What sucks about depression is that it comes and goes, much like waves. At times it will be overwhelming, all-consuming and then you'll go back to normal. You'll find yourself again and what a relief! But after a while, the wave builds up again and the fight has to start all over. But that's my fight and i have accepted it. I am determined to not be my own worst enemy but my best friend. Join me. xox
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